When I started this blog I was 23, in my first relationship, and about to move to a new country and start a new chapter in life. I am now approaching 27 and down to the last 2 months from closing said chapter of my life. What a fucking rollercoaster it has been.
I bumped into Jeremy again, funnily enough in the exact same spot, time, and event as 1 year ago when I last saw him. I’m not going to lie – I knew he would be there so I purposely put myself in a situation where I was highly likely to bump into him. The logic behind it? Not much. I genuinely just wanted to chat with him.
It was much more comfortable than the last time I saw him. Much less small talk and filling in any awkward silences, and more genuine questions about how we’ve been doing. I asked him about New York, his optometry work, about how things are with Wendy. I told him about my PhD progress, about how my final oration is in a few days. I told him how I finally sold the GT that we semi bought together. I told him that I was really happy that he was doing so well in the career that he’s been building for himself. We talked about how everything we started together is finally wrapping up and coming to a close.
What a weird feeling it is to see his face and watch him talk, and at the same time realise that at one point in my life he used to be my everything; that I once felt a love for him that I thought would never end. And then I realise that this exact moment is what I knew I had the capacity of doing – to be able to see him again as a friend and feel nothing but happiness for him. So little and yet so much about him has changed, and it was welcoming to see this in him. We spoke in the way we did prior to our relationship when we were solely friends, except this time our words were weighted with a heavy history of events and emotions that we once shared.
Three and a half years ago we came to this country looking to start a new chapter in our lives. Although we were unable to finish the chapter together, my heart is content in knowing that after all our trials and tribulations we both came out more mature with a newfound respect for each other.